i'm feeling kinda low these few days. hmm..due to my mum in a sense. it's really heart-breaking to see the strong woman breaking down in front of u. juz becoz of those prayers tt are being said at a funeral down my block. i noe how lonely my mum is at home, the fact tt she's still grieving for my aunty. yet, i can't do anything. the fact tt i'm bogged down with sch and stuff, means i have to get home late. even if i'm at home, i'm really too tired or i have lotsa hw to do. which means even lesser time for my mum. tt's why i'm trying to spend more time with her..even if it means i need to stay up late to finish studying becoz i was watching tv with my mum before.
hmm. i never really like seeing ppl cry in front of me. seeing a loved one crying is worse. i'll be at lost and i can only silently sit there and watch, sometimes passing them some tissues. i can't help but think of all thsoe times, especially my childhood times, where i'll always visit my aunty & play with my cousin while my mum gossips with my aunty.
i rmb wat my mum juz told me recently.
'' there's no place for me to go. the nearest sister's house is like a 2-hour ride and i dun really have anyone for me to talk on the phone."
i noe wat she means..and i can't do anything to help her.
i only nod my head and told her my day.
i suck.
si- thanxz for the advice. and yes, i'll always be in ur life. u mean a whole lot to me. i'm sorry if i weren't there for u..i juz wish i can do more for u.
